feeling the feeling....or something
i'm really quite fond of my therapist. his name is larry. he's very sensible and pretty funny. he also curses on occasion, which works for me because i don't trust anyone that can't drop a 'shit' or 'fuck' once in awhile. i'm a bit confounded, however. ever since i started visiting him, he's been repeating this sort of mantra. "getting to the point where it's okay just to feel the feelings" or "accepting that you're feeling". or something like that. maybe it's not a mantra if i can't quote it exactly. dammit my mind fails me. at any rate, the point he's getting at is that apparently, in some weird universe, people feel sad and feel it's okay to feel sad. if i'm sad, or lonely, or missing someone, i feel weak. in fact, happiness and anger are really the only two emotions i accept feeling, and feel that it's okay to feel them. it's completely in my nature to do anything to stop mysel...