hear me roar. and bitch. and moan.

They say insanity is when you keep doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Not being prepared is my insanity. I know that every single time I don't prepare, it ends up in disaster. This morning is a prime example. I knew I was out of produce and breakfast stuff, but I'm leaving for the three day weekend, and I didn't want to buy food that would go bad while I was gone. I didn't prepare for this morning's breakfast and I was starving, so I stopped at Burger King. I was convinced I could find something that wasn't too bad. I must have sat in front of that drive thru menu board for 5 minutes, trying to discern which was the least damaging item. I really didn't want to say "fuck it" and spend a lot of WW points because I'm going to be traveling today after work and road trips are precarious for me when it comes to food. I ordered a BK breakfast muffin sandwich. Here was my logic: McDonald's egg mcmuffi...

dear heather's brain, wtf is your problem? you started this blog over 2 years ago. you went to therapy, you're successful at a job you love, live in a great place, have a great boyfriend, great friends and a great life. you've started school and have learned a million new things. some would look at you and say you're a fairly intelligent person who has come a long way in her life. so why can't you stick to the one thing you know would complete your little bubble of happy? pull your head out of your ass, get off the couch, and put down the damn pizza. you're better than this and you know it. you've made it through so much worse and the only thing limiting you from everything you want to do is your weight. that's it. YOU and YOUR weight are the only things stopping me from the skydiving, the bungee jumping, the comfortable, problem-free 12 hour flight to ireland, and that fun position you saw in a movie that one time. yeah, you know which one i...