So long, 2008

Dear 2008,

Boy, did you rock my world. During your tenure, you brought with you an onslaught of shit. The year started out well enough, with a visit from my brother. We had a great time and bonded even more than we had before. Following that was a really great vacay to Vegas with the girls. I bought a new car (well, new to me). I flew my mom out to LA in April and had a great time with her (shocker). We did LA, Vegas, the coast. Good times.

Come August, you hit me with the death of my favorite aunt. On my trip back to Ohio for the funeral, you brought with that a visit from my other brother, whom I hadn't seen in 10 years. Not since that day he pulled a gun on me and held a knife to my throat. Apparently he's found God and wants to make amends. I wasn't ready for that, 2008. I wasn't ready for the breakup with my bf upon my return. I wasn't ready for the complete unsatisfaction in my job to smack me in the face. I wasn't prepared for the undeniable need to run away again.

However, without all that shit, I wouldn't have taken stock in my life. Looked at myself instead of the outside world. I wouldn't have found my therapist. I wouldn't have joined Weight Watchers, and I wouldn't have realized how much I love getting healthy.

Without you, 2008, I would have continued to run. Who knows what state I would have wound up in next? Without you, 2008, I wouldn't have this budding friendship with myself.

You've been a real bastard, 2008. But for that, I thank you.

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